שפת אמת

Thirst in barren times earns revelation

Vayetzei · תרל"ח (1877) · Essay 1

longing · thirst · deveikus · galus · Shabbos

במדרש צמאה לך נפשי כו' כן בקודש ע"כ בקודש כו'.

In the Midrash: "My soul thirsts for You ... so [I have gazed upon You] in the Sanctuary" — "therefore in holiness," etc. (Tehillim 63:2-3).

The Midrash expounds Dovid Hamelech's words of soul-thirst, linking the intensity of his yearning to the holy vision he then attained.

לפי גודל הרצון והתשוקה שיש באדם לעבודת הבורא במקום ציה בלי מים.

According to the greatness of the ratzon (desire) and the longing that a person has for the avodah of the Borei (Creator) in a "parched place without water" —

The measure of a person's spiritual attainment is set by how strongly he yearns for Hashem's service precisely when he is in a barren place, far from any source of inspiration.

כן יוכל אח"כ להתדבק בקדושה בשעה שמתגלה לו קצת הארה.

So will he afterward be able to cleave to kedushah (holiness) at the moment when some illumination is revealed to him.

The thirst built up in the dry times becomes the very capacity to grasp and hold onto holiness when a spark of light is finally revealed.

וזה עצמו הי' נחמה ליעקב אע"ה היותו גולה לחוץ לארץ מקום ציה.

And this itself was a consolation to Yaakov Avinu in his being exiled outside the Land, to a "parched place."

Yaakov's comfort, as he went into galus from Eretz Yisrael to the spiritual wasteland of Lavan's land, lay in this very principle.

ועכ"ז כיון שזכה ע"י רוב התשוקה והצמאון.

And nonetheless, since he merited [it] through the abundance of his longing and thirst —

Despite being in that barren place, his intense yearning and thirst made him worthy of revelation.

להתגלות מראה זו.

To the revelation of this vision [of the ladder].

It was precisely his deep longing that earned him the lofty prophetic vision of the ladder reaching to heaven.

ואמר כן בקדש חזיתיך.

And [Dovid] said, "so in the Sanctuary I beheld You."

The verse expresses how the prior thirst translates directly into the strength of the holy vision attained.

כמו שהי' כל כך צמא.

Just as he was so very thirsty —

In exact proportion to the intensity of the thirst that preceded it.

כן הי' לו התדבקות במראה הזאת.

So was his deveikus (attachment) in this vision.

The depth of his cleaving to the revealed vision matched precisely the depth of the longing that had come before.

לכן וישא יעקב רגליו.

Therefore, "and Yaakov lifted his feet" (Bereishis 29:1).

Having attained this attachment, Yaakov was lifted and carried forward with newfound lightness and joy — his feet, as it were, bearing him onward of themselves.

ודבר זה נוהג בכל פרט ג"כ.

And this matter applies to every individual as well.

This is not unique to Yaakov; the same principle holds true for every person.

וכן בעולם הזה כפי רוב התשוקה לה' יכול אח"כ להתדבק בו ית' בעולם הבא.

And so in this world, according to the abundance of one's longing for Hashem, one is afterward able to cleave to Him in the World to Come.

The intensity of one's yearning for Hashem during the "dry" reality of olam hazeh determines the depth of one's deveikus to Him in olam haba.

וכמו כן כפי התשוקה בימות החול שמוטרד במלאכות גשמיים שהוא מקום ציה בלי מים.

And likewise, according to the longing during the weekdays, when one is preoccupied with physical labors — which is a "parched place without water" —

The weekdays, filled with material toil, are themselves a kind of spiritual desert; the longing one nurtures there is what counts.

כן זוכה אח"כ בשבת קודש מעין עוה"ב לחזות בנועם ה':

So does one merit afterward, on Shabbos Kodesh — a semblance of olam haba — to behold the pleasantness of Hashem.

The thirst cultivated during the weekday labor becomes the vessel by which, on Shabbos — a taste of the World to Come — one is granted to gaze upon the sweetness of Hashem's presence.

Summary: The measure of holiness a person can grasp when light is revealed to him is set by the intensity of his thirst for Hashem in the "parched, waterless" times. This was Yaakov's consolation in galus — his very longing in that barren place earned him the vision of the ladder. The same pattern governs everyone: the yearning we build during the dry weekdays of this world becomes our capacity to cleave to Hashem on Shabbos and ultimately in olam haba.